everything is fucking up and i hate it with everything that is with me. i dont understand why i cant get over him. i fell so hard and i dont know why. im taking it he fell out of love with me so why cant i fall out of love with him. i want me and mike to work out but i dont want it to be one of those relationships where we go out, break up, go out, and break up again. that isnt fair to him. but i miss him, but i miss jason. this sucks so badly and jason has like no idea, and i refuse to talk to him about any of this to save me from those words "i dont love you anymore" and to save him an anxiety disorder. -cries and curls up- i need to be wiped off the face of this planet.